there is a song by ingrid michaelson called "far away." it's a pretty adorable song that talks about all the things she would do if she could go far away...living her life as a lobsterman's wife with three girls named ella, nellie, and faye. anyway, the song resonates with my current state as i find myself in a limbo of sorts as i look for jobs. i find myself at times wishing i could have ingrid's ability to indeed go far away.
to be frank, it's awful. as positive as i try to remain, i feel as though for every vacancy for which i apply i hear back from two others saying the positions have been filled internally (by someone already within the school district, for my non-education friends). what's worse is that i have been offered a job at an independent school (which i absolutely adore) but simply cannot afford to live on the pay they can spare for me. i'm left wondering if all the good teachers can't afford to take the jobs that don't pay even the low average salary...what is to be expected of those children who are left with teachers who are perhaps not as qualified or interested in education? if i truly want to work in the schools that need outstanding teachers but have less than outstanding pay, do i have to marry a rich lobsterman so his salary can support me and i can be where i'm needed as an educator? it's a grim outlook i know, but when your resume is tossed out multiple times a day, sometimes your sunny disposition fades a little. i just want to teach. i want to be focusing on the nuggets who need me instead of worrying about playing the games of the school districts to which i'm applying. because if i'm worrying about playing those games, who is worrying about those children? i hope you don't find me to be whiny or ungrateful, i am so aware that things could be way worse. i suppose i feel this is a safe place to let it all out. things are going to be just fine. i know they will. if you are a peer in the same boat, keep on trucking. we were taught to be tenacious for a reason. and if i'm being truly honest, my biggest fear is that i won't have a use for all the donut themed decorations i bought for my classroom...there's a lot of glitter i'm working with here, people. until next time, ld p.s here's the song, it really is precious. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zdVgCqdV9wI&noredirect=1
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