today was one of those truly awful days you would't wish upon anyone.
as a teacher, nothing makes me more unhappy than seeing my children hurting. whether they are in pain because of a scraped knee at recess or a bruised heart from words spoken unkindly, when they hurt...i hurt. i don't love anyone or anything in the world the way i love my nuggets. they are my favorite thought. my greatest inspiration. my sweetest friends. my biggest supporters. they are, in so many ways, my world. and my god, do they make life sweet. this morning we talked about the reason we were created. we all believe we were created by god to do big things. to take grand adventures. and to love people. sometimes god calls us to new places we don't always want to go to. we're not ready to leave. and that is so incredibly hard. but part of being a christian is being brave with your life and making the leap: even if you don't feel ready. i don't feel ready, but i'm jumping anyway. i have taught my kids everything i know. on most days it's not particularly graceful or even dignified but the growth is real and it is pure. i have given everything for my children and although i would go back to certain days and give myself more patience or diet coke: there isn't a single day i can think of that i would go back and love these kids differently. i know i did that perfectly every day. today i told my children i had to leave them next year. and i cried like a baby. and they cried. and i held them. because that's what you do when you love someone. i will never love any children the way i love my kids at sms. but there are other nuggets who need me in new places and i have other hearts to run after. i pray that as my children grow they will leap before they're ready and love with all their hearts. for me, there is no greater lesson to teach. i pray i have taught them well. for they most certainly have taught me. always, miss d
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